You stand there and make awkward chit chat and sometimes, more often, you end the chit chat with polite "Let's do coffee sometime" and move on. But, yet, sometimes, if you're truly lucky, you find yourself moving past the chit chat and reaching into the depths and you pour out your life story and the troubles, and hopefully, blessings, you've been dealing with for the last 5 months.
I hope this is that kind of chit chat.
Five months since my last post. I can't even believe I let it go this long!! I think part of me was so worried about making my "return post" so darn interesting, I ended up avoiding it all together. Or, ducking down another aisle in the store so as to not see the person and avoid talking to them all together.
Last I left you, I was working several part time jobs and trying to make it through Christmas without harming myself or a loved one.
I put off harming myself until January 24. That's the day I stood on the arm of the couch, to take down our living room curtains to wash. Then, proceeded to fall off the arm of the couch and break my ankle.
No more work for me!! But, also? No more cleaning (curtains never did get washed!), cooking or laundry. It was great!!
For the first 3 days.
Then, it got really boring. And, it was hard to just lay there and have the world go on around you. Going to the bathroom took so much energy and strength.
Eventually, I started to put weight on it and putt-putt around in a wheelchair. Then, only use crutches and eventually wear TWO shoes again (vs. the fancy boot thingy) and now, 3 months later, walking with a limp.
My ankle is still actually broken but the doctor said I could go back to work. It may take up to 6 months for it to totally heal. Uh. Who knew it took so long for a bone to heal, especially in your 40s.
Yes. I turned 40 in March. I still can't believe that. No big party. Would've been nice to go on a trip or something. Oh well. Life at 40 is pretty much the same as it was at 39. Which means we're still broke.
Jayce turned 16 in December. He was anxious to get his driver's license. But, his dad and I did not think he was ready.
He had saved money for two summers, birthdays and Christmases and was able to buy a truck.
|Jeven helping Jayce wash Red.|
I'm sure there are lots of things I'm leaving out. Lots of "feelings" and thought provoking insights. But, all in all, life is just going on.
It was good to see you again and I hope to run into you again, really soon!!