Let me say first off, if you were to stop by my house at any given time, I would welcome you in with open arms. At your own risk of course, but I'd be happy to see you.
But, being a good hostess is not my strong point. Planning a get together at my house stresses me out to no end. Why? I am not sure. But, I've narrowed it down to 2 things.
1) I feel like my home's appearance is a reflection of me. If my house is not as clean as you think it should be, I perceive that to mean that I am not as good as you think I should be. If you don't like the new paint color, it hurts my feelings. Deep down I know it's just a matter of taste but it still hurts.
2) I don't like losing control of situations. We have rules in our house and certain ways of doing things. Who doesn't? And, when I have a large number of people in my home and things are done that aren't normally allowed, I have a hard time.
Both of these reasons, I am honestly ashamed to admit to them. As a Christian wife, shouldn't it come natural to be a proper hostess? But I am sure people leave my house thinking I am an uptight hag. I assure you, I am not!
I will continue to invite people over and plan gatherings because truly it's MY attitude that needs to change. I will work on being more hospitable. I promise!
In my defense, there were 15 people in our house. Not counting the 6 that live here regularly.
Jarrett sitting with dad, waiting to open presents!
Jarrett blowing out birthday candles on his Wall E cake!