Saturday, August 22, 2009

On the Edge...

...of insanity? of reason? of a nervous breakdown?

Take your pick!

I am at my parents house, they live only a few blocks from us. They also have better internet than us! Yay parents!

I sat down here intending to blog about all that's going on. In my jumbled up mind and in our jumbled up house these days. But, as I type, the kids destroy grammie and papa's house. Not much differnt from when I type at home. But, alas, I must clean up the mess before I leave and frankly, if I'm going to clean anyone's house, it will be mine.

We have one more whole week until school starts. Normally, I would be excited. But, because we are homeschooling for the very first year, I'm extremely nervous. I have no doubt in my mind that we have made the right choice for our kids but come on! This would have been the first year that Josie and Jayce would be out of the house for 6 hours. Jarrett is going to preschool a couple hours a week. So that would mean I would be home with one child for a few hours a day. Something I have not experienced oh, ever!! Even when I only had one child of my own (Jayce) I was doing in home daycare. My house has always had children in it.

Now, Jayce and Josie will be home with me. All day. Every day. Jarrett will still go to a Christian preschool a couple hours a week. And I'm a little embarrassed to admit that the lack of "me time" is what I'm most worried about. I can go and go and go until I can't. Meaning, I can give myself to my kids and husband for only so long until I need a break. Until I burn out.

Lukily, I have a great support system with my husband and my friends. I know that all the help I need is only a phone call away. I plan to use them. Often.

This next week will be spent getting somewhat organized and prepared for school to start.

Right now, I'm a little intimated by the class schedule and how much time it seems it all is going to take. But, everyone that I've talked to said to take it slow and I'll be surprised how fast it will go.

My husband is on vacation next week as well. I love him dearly. I really do. But, in the past, a week at home, on "my turf" as never ended well. I am hoping that we can squeeze in some fun with all this planning and end our summer with a smile.


  1. There's a lot of stuff about homeschooling on my blog if you click on 'homeschooling' in the sidebar. It's more about how I did it, but you may find some things you can use there.

    Do you know about the A to Z Home's Cool website? Here's the link:

    There's a chat there every Friday night (I host) and lots of veteran homeschoolers to bounce ideas off of.

    I'm only an email away, too.

    You can do this. And take a break from kids if you need to, there's nothing wrong with that at all.


  2. Breathe, just breathe! You'll be fine. Take it slow! You're going to love having your kids around and you'll cry your eyes out when they start driving and working and they are no longer home, all day, every day.....


  3. Jackie--it sounds like you are struggling. I hear you being overwhelmed and nervous about homeschooling. I ordered a book called Managers of Their Homes. It is rigid, but it helped me with a schedule for the days we are homeschooling. Google it and the Maxwell's website will come up. It really helped me and I SCHEDULED the 'me' time in my schedule each day so I didn't go nuts. I don't know if this would help, but thought I would throw it out there. Hang in there! Seek out other homeschoolers online too. They have really helped me. Take care.

  4. You are going to do just fine! I have faith in you, Jackie!!! I love you tons!!! ~Jennifer~


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